Marty October 28th, 2008
It’s been tough to sit down and write this. Tough to even think about it. Tough to remember the words my father was able to choke out before the emotions took over. Tough to believe that my grandfather was really dead.
We had gotten the word from my aunt that he was going downhill again, and so I left work to try to get to see him. My father was coming back from North Carolina to see him. It seemed evident that the end was near and that he would not likely make it to election day. Unfortunately, by the time I made it home from work, I realized that by the time I got through traffic, he would be sleeping. So I made my plans to go see him Saturday morning. My father did the same.
I was just about to get in the shower when the call came - he had died that night. There would be no visit that day, or ever again.
Saturday was a blur. I made my way to my parents while we waited for plans to be made. I called my sister to let her know and to see if she would be coming up. Shari was hosting a photography seminar, and was committed to a dozen photogs, so had to give moral support via phone. I remember eating at my parents, talking to them, listening to the usual drama that surrounds most conversations about my family. But when I got home that night to Shari’s arms, it was tough to really tell her what had transpired throughout the day. The only thing that resonated was the simple fact that my grandfather - that old curmudgeon - wouldn’t be there to give me shit, to lambaste the liberals, decry the failings of the government and to talk of the past, all with a twinkle in his eye.
Strangely, I didn’t have any guilt about not making it down threw night before, for would have been his last night on earth. No, the last time I had seen him was how I wanted to remember him - more mentally together than he had been in years, and offering up wisdom that lacked his usual edge. His final words to me were his dying thoughts, his legacy; I can’t imagine any better way to picture him in my mind.
The final goodbye
Now we begin our days without our patriarch, the man who - for better or worse - was the head of the family. Unfortunately, there is a lot of bad blood in my family that is rearing its ugly head now, and I can only hope that people can be civil to each other until well after the funeral on Thursday. For me, I just want to say my final goodbyes, to remember a man who did so much for me and who I know loved me although he would never say the words.
Goodbye, Ol’ Curmudgeon, and I will see you on the other side. Until then, don’t harass those liberals up there too much.
After I got my new hard drive, I set about doing some things that I had put off for a while, such as organizing my images (strewn across 4 hard drives, 7 partitions and countless different folders), and culling the vast number of ‘backup disks’ that had accumulated over time. Some were interesting “Wow, my old college lab reports”) - and some were destined to be trashed (”Hmmm, a Photoshop 5 LE disc. That’s old - and in the way”). But one thing that I discovered (multiple copies of) was the first website that I ever designed - and I use that term loosely - and ran, way back in 1995. Continue Reading »
